"You can't make positive choices for the rest of your life without an environment that makes those choices easy, natural, and enjoyable."
-Deepak Chopra
You don’t realize how the lack of basic supplies can change your mood until your quality of life becomes very poor. Of course you know positive attitudes help to bring about change but no matter how hard you try to stay calm and full of hope, there comes a time when you just feel helpless letting despair run your life.
When you get up you sure need certain supplies if you want to enjoy healthy life: You need water, soap, toothpaste, toilet paper and of course food. So unless you are Mother Teresa of Calcutta or you are planning to become a Saint there’s no way you can enjoy life if you are unemployed and you are about to become homeless every month.
Your will becomes weaker because you can no longer choose what to eat or what to do. You just eat what you can get or what people share with you; you do not eat what you feel like or what it is healthy for you. You do what you can do according to the energy you have and how many coins are left. You try not to waste your efforts; you just save so that you can still get up and ride your bike if you need to. Therefore it is common to lose the will to live and one should not be ashamed of this because if other people have never been there they can hardly grasp the scale of the problem.
It’s been two long months and I am just drifting out to sea with no compass and no map, welfare is out of sight. I keep writing on my blog and on my FB biography, it’s become like a journal. It does help venting but it also helps to keep track of what is actually going on so that no matter what might happen rumours will be silenced when you read my words.
Just me
February 23rd 2013
Hay un momento en el que uno siente que todo da igual. Da igual encender o no el teléfono, porque de todos modos nadie llama. Da igual revisar el correo porque la casilla sólo se llena de spam y el mensaje esperado no llega. En medio de esta nada uno puede llegar a creer que da igual escribir.
Sin embargo, si no salgo victoriosa de esta batalla, si mi rasgo de locura se pierde para siempre y dormito en el mundo de los vivos o si el universo me regala el pasaporte azul que tanto espero; de cualquier modo, nadie podrá vender una mentira. Si algo quieres saber de mí, bastará que leas: mi muro, mis libros, mis poemas, mis blogs, mi prosa. Aquí encontrarás todas las respuestas y todas las verdades.
Cómo dice la frase final de un texto que alguna vez escribí:La Paz no estará en mi Nombre, sino en mi Verdad.
Soledad Lorena
SusanaSusie17 de Febrero de 2013
